Suddenly your world changes in an instant in that one phone call, email, or text message. It’s funny how life can change in an instant, and you are not given an opportunity to go back or to fix what was broken. You stay angry with a person because you take advantage of the fact that you will have the opportunity to fix it any time, and you get the call that they died in a car accident or were murdered, and you live with the guilt because you lost your ability to forgive them, and then forgive yourself. Today I want to talk to you about the lost sorry. We all go through problems and issues in life, and before we let go we allow bitterness, anger, and hatred to develop in our hearts all because we lack the ability to forgive, and then to forgive ourselves.
What if I told you that it is because of your inability to say sorry, and to forgive yourself that you are not getting what you are praying for? What if I told you that it is your bitterness within that has built instead of your strength in yourself and in God? We as people have come to believe that it’s easy to hate, but it is much harder to forgive, but most people find it easy to hate others because of their lack of love for themselves. This is not an infertility blog; this is a regular post me talking to you about you not being able to move forward because of the roadblocks and bitterness that you have placed in front of you. What if the greatness of the promise that you are looking for isn’t being given because of your inability to learn how to love yourself and forgive yourself so that you can forgive others?
What if you have learned how to hate yourself so well that you project it onto everything that you touch? How can God bless you if you are sitting in hate? How can God fix you when you have become comfortable with being broken? How can you get to the top of your destiny when you are still resting in the bottom, and that has become your normal? So people know you as the mean one, bitter one, hateful one all because you haven’t been able to find love in yourself. Sometimes we allow the things we have done in the past to make our future instead of allowing our past to teach our future. You are not able to take a step forward if you won’t let go of what happened behind you. So you then sit in your bitter ways, and your hateful ways, and then wonder why you don’t have everything you wished for. Why you have to stay in a place where you aren’t happy, loved, or wanted.
You wonder why you haven’t gotten the promotion or the invite to certain places, and it because you have allowed your bitter to be your normal. I want to talk to you today about what you feel your worth is. Because when you find out what you are worth then the value of the things you deal with, and involve yourself with things will change, and when your surroundings change then your life can change. Often you will see people with low self-esteems are the ones who don’t have much, but it’s people who have confidence, determination, value, and fight that gain everything. When you can love yourself in spite of what you can’t do then you can do anything. I am reminded of Peter and his trust in God when He told him to come Peter could have easily said well I have never walked on water, I can’t walk on water, but he believed God and he went, and the minute that he doubted he started to sink.
That’s what’s happening to you right now you are standing in the boat contemplating whether you can do something when God said come, and because you started with doubt when you step out into the water you will sink. I challenge you to develop your trust in God and your God confidence so that you don’t sink in opportunities that could be won if you were confident. I challenge you to believe in yourself in whatever God is calling you to even if in another area things aren’t working out. When my husband and I found out that it would be hard for us to get pregnant, and we went through our first IVF cycle and it failed.
I could have easily said well that’s it no more, but I had God confidence, and I said God has called me to be a mother so even though I can not birth right now does not mean that I am not capable to perform greatness and win in another way, and my husband and I adopted. When you have God confidence you can’t go anywhere but up. You can’t be stopped, and you won’t allow the bitterness of the past to control the power you have for your future. What is God confidence? It’s exactly that if God is living in me and I have confidence in God then I can do anything if He is living in me. Therefore I have God confidence. Don’t wallow in bitterness stand in better because as long as you don’t allow yourself to forgive from the outside in you can’t win. Don’t lose your blessing because you have lost your sorry. I’m a winner because I choose to step away from my bitter place into better.